Starting Again

I'm fat. There I said it.  That's all there is to it. Plain and simple, I'm fat. Not chubby, pleasantly plump, large and in charge, big boned or fluffy. I'm fat, morbidly obese, overweight and whatever unpleasant words you want to associate with fat. 343 pounds on a 6'2" frame is fat and that is me. I am a Type 2 diabetic taking insulin shots and pills for that, high blood pressure, and high cholesterol. Basically, because I am fat my body is killing me. 

I realize that a lot of people are larger than me and this is a nationwide epidemic but I have to do something. I have tried to do this on my own and failed. I have looked in to weight loss surgery and decided that it is not for me for reasons that I may or may not discuss later. Many attempts and many failures later I am starting again and this blog will be my journal and attempt to document what I am doing.

First, the ground rules. While I am using a weight loss system this is not an endorsement of that system or a condemnation of any other system. I am not being paid to use this system, in fact it is costing me money, so I may or may not have to change mid stream due to finances. I will try to be as honest as possible and also a little skeptical. I am wary of nutritional science claims and I hope to never come off as some “expert” who knows everything. I am open to ideas and discussions as long as it stays on topic, does not get hostile or personal.

The program I am on requires a weekly weigh in so I will update my weight weekly. I don’t live on a scale, in fact my scale at home doesn’t even go high enough for my weight, and so weekly weight updates will have to do. I get penalized for gaining weight and missing meetings so hopefully I can stay on track. They say the accountability is part of what helps you keep with the program. We’ll see. This blog is also part of the program and I’ve decided to make it public to share the trip down this path. That is enough of the basics, now on to my homework for the program.

Personal Goals

I want to lose 100 lbs. I know this will not happen overnight nor will it be easy. I want to be able to buy jeans in the normal Men’s department which means a 42 inch waist. I want to work out an hour a day 5 times a week and I want to have more energy.

Why?

I’m tired, literally, of having no energy. I used to love to read; now I can’t look at a book without my eyes falling shut. I get home from work and fall asleep in my chair. I want to be able to climb around in my theater without getting out of breath. I want to be able to go see a baseball game, a show, a concert, and fly in a plane without having to worry about fitting in to the seat. I want to stop poking myself 4-5 times a day for injections and readings and I want to stop taking medications that just cause more things to go wrong. I want my life back. Believe it or not I actually ran cross country in high school, not well mind you, but I ran 3 miles regularly.

I realize that this won’t be easy or quick but I’m going to try my best. I have too or it’s my life.